Thomas

As I look forward to going back to Starfish and seeing some of the same babies I met last year something feels different. I know that many have gone to be with their forever familes and I am beyond thrilled for them but its that one little boy who I fell for that I wont see again that is getting to me. Thomas left this world a little too soon and I miss him. I looked forward to seeing him again for months and months and was so happy that I was going to Starfish again. But then the news no one likes to hear came Thomas passed away. I know he is in a much better place away from all the hurt, his heart is forever healed, and he is orphaned no more but it still hurts to know that while here he was an orphan. I can honestly say that while he was on this earth he was loved beyond belief by volunteers, nannies and Amanda. Even though he was loved nothing beats a family where you are the center of attention. I so wish that Thomas would have had a family to love him and cherish the little boy he was and still is in my heart! I ache for his birth family that has no idea about their little boy or where he is today. It will be so hard walking through the doors of Starfish knowing one of my boys isn't there. I am however thankful he is partying it up with all his other Starfish siblings that have passed away and they are all planning the arrival of Amanda and oh what a party it will be then when they are reunited with their mommy Amanda. Amanda has the hardest job of all of us not only does she get the joy of seeing her babies join families but she has to deal with the hurt of that those who have passed on. I miss you Thomas and it was a blessing to meet you last year. I prayed so hard you would have a family on this side of heaven but for reasons unknown you were taken too soon!!

My all time favorite picture I took last year Hannah hugging Thomas

Chinese New Year 2011

Me and Thomas playing on the floor!!